heartbreak

So i don't even know where to begin. This past week has been the biggest emotional rollercoaster that I have ever experienced. From the pure elation from seeing my first BFP and seeing the look of sheer happiness on my DH's face, to the devestating news that my Beta was going down and that it was looking like it would be a loss. I can't stand the fact that this happened and when I first told my DH that it wasn't looking good I just lost it.

Then when it was confirmed yesterday I just felt numb. I really don't understand. Why is it so easy for some people? I keep trying to see positive in this. At least we were able to get pregnant in the first place. That is a positive, right?

But now I am scared it will take us a long time to get that second chance. And who is to say that that one will stick??